You Know Who You Are, But Struggle to Be & Speak With Others
“I wanted to stand on my own two feet and be recognized.”
What if the reason you second-guess yourself, crave external validation, or shrink from your own confidence... isn't actually yours? In this conversation, I meet with Britney for a live ancestral healing process within an Alchemical Family and Systemic Constellation session that goes places neither of us anticipated!
Britney came in with a specific intention: she wanted to stop needing permission to be herself. She knows she's qualified. She knows she's capable. But something underneath kept making her feel fragile whenever she tried to step into her confidence fully.
You’ll especially want to tune into this client session if you, too:
» don’t want to hesitate be to your whole self
» have gone to therapy, and know it isn’t a “therapy issue,” but something is still lingering
» have ever felt there’s a rock in your heart
» feel like you overthink things…a lot
» or are an identical twin
Topics covered in this podcast episode:
Why it’s so important to clearly name the forward movement you’d like
What happens during the tune-in process in a constellation process with the client and Amy
How people get information (and know it’s correct) during these sessions
How ancestral patterns can skip siblings and even an identical twin
Why ancestors feeling known and understood are central parts of the process
Two brand new resources that’s never appeared before on the podcast
How a soul-level process works (for those present and past)
Of the 4 levels of integration, which Britney needed for this session
I hope that this session with Britney nourishes you and your systemic field and helps you to move forward, especially if you’ve also been feeling hesitant to be in the fullness of who you are with others.
I hope that you are open to being curious to what you carry, rather than feeling things will never change for you. If you would like support, you can always send me an email to me at: amy@amybabish.com to explore ways we can work together.
Thank you for joining us and being a part of this alchemical constellation journey/
To book your own constellation process, explore the Alchemical Constellation Gateway.
If you’re unsure where to begin, sign up for a free Consultation Call. And if this episode resonates, please leave a review on your favorite platform and share this episode with those who you think might benefit.
Until we meet again, I'm sending blessings from the Doeg land I steward.
Resources:
be who you are by Trevor Hall (song)
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The unedited podcast transcript for this episode of The Soulful Visionary Podcast follows
[00:01:28] Welcome to the Soulful Visionary Podcast. I'm your host, Amy Babish, and I'm so excited today to have someone that I've only had a little bit of contact with, and her name is Brittany. Welcome in, Brittany, and welcome in to all the listeners.
[00:01:41] Hi. Thank you so much, Amy.
[00:01:44] For those of you who don't know, I always have, podcast guests fill out a form so that I have a little bit of a sense of them before we dive very deep on this, uh, podcast. And Brittany filled this out a bit ago, so, uh, I'm just gonna have her say in her own words what her intention is of being here today.
[00:02:02] Yeah. So I am... This is all very, like, new to me.
[00:02:07] I'm very familiar with, like, energy work. But, like, this specifically is very new to me. So I'm always, always looking to, you know, improve myself, try and be, like, the best version of myself. And what I found really interesting was when you were... When I, like, heard you kind of explaining this, like, you could be dealing with something that you have been carrying but you don't realize that you're carrying it.
[00:02:37] Yes. I was like, that feels That I'm curious to see because I feel like that resonates with me because a lot of the time, like through what I do creatively and then professionally, I find that I constantly get in this like mindset of like I'm scared to like fully like dive in or fully be myself because I'm just...
[00:03:05] I h- feel like I have like this protection mode that I get into, and I feel like I'm just always on the edge of like, well, I, I feel like I constantly have a crutch that I need validation, but like logically I know. I've like, I've gone to therapy. I know like that's not something that I necessarily need to look in like others for.
[00:03:32] And I, I am an identical twin, and so like on the surface you could be like, "Oh, that's something that maybe just is like, you know, something to do with like your family." But like she does not deal with that at all. So I'm like, I feel like I'm curious to see if there's anything like ancestor related that I'm just like trying...
[00:03:55] Like I'm stuck with, and I would love to kind of work through it.
[00:03:59] So I thank you for naming it so clearly.
[00:04:02] Yeah, of course.
[00:04:03] Um, and, and I have a lot of... U- um, uh, I get feedback in a, a number of ways, so the feedback that I get right away is like I have the chills, so I know that we're in the right territory for you.
[00:04:13] Okay. And I can feel something in my heart, and my... I, my body is like a tuning fork. Okay. So something... It's something with your heart.
[00:04:20] Mm-hmm.
[00:04:21] And I felt it. Like the more specific you got, the more I could feel kind of where we are. And when we work on intention, we talk about, um, you know, this is what's kind of been your experience, your lived experience, and it makes really no logical sense because you know yourself.
[00:04:35] You've been to therapy. Yeah. Like you kind of... You've, you've, you've done some excavating in a very thorough way I have a sense of.
[00:04:40] Mm-hmm.
[00:04:40] Um, so if we could work through what this is, what would you... How would you like to use the energy, like the resolution or the transmutation of what's been in the way?
[00:04:49] Like what would you like the forward movement to be for you?
[00:04:53] Like, what would I like to basically, like, accomplish?
[00:04:56] Uh, uh, it could be accomplish, it could be how you wanna be. Like, I wanna know myself, I want clarity. Um...
[00:05:04] I, I feel like when I'm in situations, I don't want to necessarily be, like, hesitant or scared of being confident within myself, 'cause, like, through, like, my work, I've, like, I've gone to school, I've gotten, like, certifications.
[00:05:22] Like, I know, like, I have, like, I have the confidence, I have the background, but I'm always still hesitant to put myself out there because I just feel like I'm relying on, like, someone's permission. But I want to be confident in going forward that, like, I don't need permission. I can just be who I am, and that's okay.
[00:05:48] So, um, you wanna have, um... We, we, we're gonna tr- it's not my words, but I'm trying to kinda like fine-tune- Mm-hmm ... because when we do this work, we don't ever wanna, like, resolve something because then it's like a... It's, it's literally like a empty space.
[00:06:01] Yeah.
[00:06:02] And so when the empty space is there, anything can come in, and we wanna give it some specificity that you would prefer- Mm-hmm
[00:06:08] uh, uh, if at all possible. So you wanna be who you are. Um, and there's, there's something that just came through. Um, be who you are and on your own terms.
[00:06:21] Yes.
[00:06:22] Mm-hmm. On your own terms. That, that feels really strong when I say that. Um... '
[00:06:27] Cause a lot of times I've... I have, like, I have listened to, like, your podcast- Yeah
[00:06:32] 'cause I was like, "I'm gonna, I'm gonna prepare." So, like, I was listening to your podcast and I was trying to think like, "Okay, how am I gonna best explain it?" Yes. And I'm always someone that, like, takes a minute to try and think about things. But what I, like, immediately, like, felt come through, and I was like, "Oh," like, I've never been, like, very, like, okay, immediately this is how I, like, how I see or feel things.
[00:07:01] But I was like, I feel like in a lot of situations, if even... Like, when I try and, like, exude any confidence, I feel very fragile. Wow. And I feel like there's something stopping me from, like- Mm ... feeling strong.
[00:07:18] Okay.
[00:07:19] Mm-hmm.
[00:07:20] That's j- I feel that even more. Yeah. So feeling strong about who you are on your own terms.
[00:07:25] Yeah.
[00:07:26] Okay. I, I think that... I think we have it. Let me... I'm just gonna... I take notes 'cause it's like I'm, I'm taking dictation from you-
[00:07:33] Yeah ...
[00:07:33] in your, in your sy- systemic field, so I'm kinda make- Mm ... do I have it right field. Um, so, um, and I'm checking, I'm checking with your soul. Mm-hmm. And your soul is in 100...
[00:07:44] We- we're in the right territory.
[00:07:45] Yeah.
[00:07:46] So, um, thank you for, thank you for doing your homework and listening beforehand because-
[00:07:51] Of course. Yeah ...
[00:07:51] yeah, it's not required, but it's really helpful because then it's not just like, what the heck is gonna happen here?
[00:07:56] Um- No. No, I understand. Yeah.
[00:07:58] So, uh, our next step once we have your intention, and we have a, we have a clear sense of what's in the way already- Mm-hmm is to do what, what we call a tune in, like the radio, like-
[00:08:09] Okay
[00:08:09] old school radio. Yes. Uh, like 99.5. Um, and so we're gonna a- ask your systemic field, which is everything that came before you in its totality. Okay. So it's like everything including ancestors, past lives, anything and everything. We are gonna give, um, your field permission to let you and I know, and it might let us know in different ways.
[00:08:29] Like, you might see it visually or hear it. I might sense it. Okay. So we're gonna get different pieces of the puzzle about what this is connected to. So- Okay ... sometimes we get it, like, right away on the first ask, but sometimes they're a little bit l- little bit hesitant. Mm-hmm. Um, 'cause they have to get to know me, and they're like, "Okay, um, Brittany's never done this before," so- Mm-hmm
[00:08:48] we're, we're kind of, like, making gentle contact with them. So when I do it, I close my eyes, but it's not required for you to close your eyes. But that's kind of how I-
[00:08:54] Okay ...
[00:08:54] so we're just asking them, like, where does this belong and who does it belong to? And, um, it might be a person. It might be a time in history.
[00:09:04] Um, it might be something very familiar. It might be like, I have no idea what this means. You... We'll just, we'll just kind of go there.
[00:09:09] Okay.
[00:09:12] And sometimes it's helpful to ask, like, who am I standing with? And you might not see them, but you might sense them
[00:09:58] It's, it's very, like, fuzzy. I'm trying to focus in
[00:10:02] That's, that's okay. So even just- Mm-hmm ... just tell me what you sense on the fuzziness, 'cause that's important.
[00:10:10] It's... Like, it's gonna... Like, I feel like it sounds really, like, silly, but something like it definitely, like, we're far in the past, like, wagon, like-
[00:10:21] Yeah ...
[00:10:22] w- horse-drawn wagon kind of days. Mm-hmm. And, like, some sort of, like, business.
[00:10:28] Ooh. Mm-hmm. Yeah, I feel that. I feel that. Um, okay. Um, and when you... Like, right when you started talking- Mm-hmm
[00:10:39] um, about being, um, hesitant or scared-
[00:10:44] Mm-hmm ...
[00:10:45] I started hearing... And I don't expect you to know who this artist is, because we all have different musical taste. Yeah. The, the field will oftentimes give me music. So I got a, a, a Trevor H- Trevor Hall song. He's kind of like a myst- mystic person.
[00:10:59] Okay.
[00:10:59] And the, the song is...
[00:11:01] The, the lyrics they played to me is, "Don't run away from it."
[00:11:05] Okay. "
[00:11:05] Be who you are."
[00:11:07] Mm-hmm.
[00:11:08] So I, I think we're on that. And, um, it felt like I was very, very, very far. Like, it wa- it was, like, kind of like a repetition of they told me I'm, I'm with your maternal line, so your mom's line. Yeah. And, um, then when you spoke this time, when you said, "I'm in the far past with the wagon and the horse"-
[00:11:27] Mm-hmm
[00:11:27] and you... Then when you said entrepreneur, I felt really, really strongly we're, we're with, um... We're with a couple. So it's a man- Yeah ... and a woman. We're with a man and a woman. And, um, I think we're in Utah.
[00:11:41] Yeah? Oh,
[00:11:42] okay. Ooh. Not sur- not surprisingly. Not surprisingly. Yeah. Um, so I feel that. And, um, let's, let's see.
[00:11:51] Um, are they willing... Sometimes we have to go person by person because it's just... That's just how it is. Yeah. Um, so when I tu- Sometimes I can tune in before, um, we talk, and before you... Like, about 15 minutes before, um, you were coming on, I asked the field do I have per- permission. So it's not like I'm ever going behind a, um, a client's back.
[00:12:14] Yeah.
[00:12:15] I did have from... I did have your consent, um, in writing, and then this is the consent before the sh- before we record. I got that it was your maternal grandmother.
[00:12:24] Okay.
[00:12:25] And so, um, it doesn't start with her, but, um, there's a strong, really s- like, a really strong... Like, I feel like, um... There's no video for this podcast, but I can feel, like, when someone grabs you, like, right by your elbow, like, on your f- Yeah
[00:12:41] on your skin and, like, squeezes you, like, from behind. Mm-hmm. That's what it feels like when I sense her. So,
[00:12:47] um- Yeah ...
[00:12:48] like-
[00:12:48] My, my Mimi's definitely that way. Mm-hmm ...
[00:12:50] like, kind of like the, the phrase that the field says is, like, kind of like strong arms you.
[00:12:55] Yes. Mm-hmm.
[00:12:56] Does that sound like I have the right person?
[00:12:59] Yes. Mm-hmm.
[00:13:02] You know, I wasn't attached to it being, like, only her. But it's something that, um, she has it. Yeah. Um, and I always ask, like, "Do I have the right to know?" Um, your twin doesn't have it, and your mom doesn't have it.
[00:13:18] Yeah.
[00:13:19] So th- this is, like, helping both you and the listeners to be like, how does this, how does this work?
[00:13:25] It's a mystery, I'll tell you that.
[00:13:27] Mm-hmm, yeah.
[00:13:28] This is part of, um... In, in my experience, it's never... Like, anything I say to you, Brittany, is, like... It's not like I have the truth. I try to convey a wholeness that was probably omitted or not known.
[00:13:40] Yeah.
[00:13:40] So the wholeness is, um, you and your grandmother have some kind of agreement, and it's usually before you incarnated.
[00:13:47] Okay.
[00:13:48] And so, um, oftentimes we pick our lineages because they have something that, that, like... It will give us an exclamation point. Like, before you incarnated, you might have said, "I wanna work on feeling really strong about who I am on my own terms." Mm-hmm. And you might have worked on it in other lifetimes.
[00:14:04] And then this one, you're like, "This is the lifetime where I'm gonna really seal the deal. I'm gonna do it." And so then all of the people come, and then when you say, you know, into the megaphone of how it works there, I don't know.
[00:14:15] Mm-hmm.
[00:14:16] Then your lineages come and say, your mom and dad, they come with their lineages, and they say, "We have that, too."
[00:14:23] Okay. You help y- you help you, you help us. Mm-hmm. That's kind of how it works, to my understanding. So, um, your Mimi stepped out of the line and said, "I need help with this."
[00:14:32] Okay. Mm-hmm.
[00:14:33] And so I, I know a little bit about your Mimi, and-
[00:14:37] Yes ...
[00:14:38] it might be that on, on the surface Mimi never shows this to you.
[00:14:42] Yeah.
[00:14:43] So she might never, like, ever let you have a whiff of feeling, um, that she can't be who she is.
[00:14:49] Mm-hmm.
[00:14:50] But I can... When I say that out loud, I can feel it's deep in her heart. It's like a- Yeah ... it's like a rock in her heart. Um, and- Sometimes when we carry a rock in our heart and we don't understand it, then we just kind of like put more rocks around it.
[00:15:04] Like, "I'm just not gonna deal with that. I'm not gonna think about that." Yeah. And so we, we do that. And then because she's carried the rocks from others, then when you're l- when you raise your hand, you're like, "Where do all these rocks come from?" Like, WTF? Like, I should not feel this kind of like wobbliness about myself.
[00:15:24] Like, it makes no- Yeah ... fucking sense. So that's the metaphor they're showing me for you. Um, and they're even kind of like relieved that we're naming it this way. So you and your Mimi didn't do anything wrong. You didn't do anything wrong. Like, this is ... This goes, you know, um, further back. Um, and at any time you can ask me questions because it's important.
[00:15:46] Your questions inform the process.
[00:15:49] Okay.
[00:15:50] So I am- Gotcha ... I don't have the answers. I am, um ... When I do my, um, duty well, I am-
[00:15:56] Mm-hmm ...
[00:15:56] I stay behind the questions.
[00:15:58] Okay. Got you.
[00:16:00] So I'm an, I'm gonna ... Just as much, um, as an, an inquiry with you as, as you are. Um, okay. So the next guidance is to ask how many generations back.
[00:16:11] They want us to know how many generations back it is.
[00:16:12] Okay.
[00:16:13] So, um, it goes from Mimi to her dad. So it's like kind of like they, they kind of show me like a family tree.
[00:16:20] Yeah.
[00:16:20] So that's, um, two gener- so that's your great-grandfather. Mm-hmm. And then from your great-grandfather it goes to his dad, so your great-great-grandfather.
[00:16:31] And then it goes to his, his mom, so great-great-great-grandmother.
[00:16:36] Gotcha.
[00:16:40] And it goes one more generation back to both of her parents.
[00:16:45] Okay.
[00:16:47] So that's, I think that's four great back.
[00:16:50] Yeah.
[00:16:51] And, um-
[00:16:58] They're the ones who move to Utah.
[00:17:00] Okay.
[00:17:03] Yeah, so we have the right people.
[00:17:04] Mm-hmm.
[00:17:08] And so now we're gonna spend a little bit of time with them
[00:17:11] Mm-hmm
[00:17:12] And it has to do with their heart. I can feel it right, right away. There's some, there's a hurt That your, um, great-great-great-great-grandmother carries in her heart, that you carry in your heart, and I can feel tears coming. Um, she didn't know that it was gonna be like this for you.
[00:17:32] Okay.
[00:17:34] Um, and she didn't know it was gonna be like this for Mimi.
[00:17:37] Mm-hmm.
[00:17:38] And we don't have to know, um, like, what it was like for the others, but she's focused on you and Mimi. Um-
[00:17:46] And she wants me to tell you, um, she's sorry for all the heartbreak you carried that you didn't know about.
[00:17:55] Aw. It's
[00:17:56] fine. I... Yeah. She's like, "You carried a lot of heartbreak," and it was, like, really painful. Like, she says agonizing.
[00:18:05] Okay.
[00:18:06] And, um-
[00:18:11] She uses the phrase unintended consequences. There are a lot of unin- unintended consequences from her, her decisions.
[00:18:18] Okay.
[00:18:24] Yeah. So we're gonna have them talk with you for a little bit, but that's their kind of- Yeah ... that's their, um... I'm the go-between. I'm the, I'm, I'm kind of like the, the bridge between them. But they can hear me talk, they can hear you talk. They're, they-
[00:18:38] Yeah ...
[00:18:38] sometimes they,
[00:18:39] they- I find, I find that it's so, like, I love that you explained it like there's like a rock on your heart, 'cause I don't know, like, if you knew this, but, like, this, I just thought it was just me being like, you know, in middle school, high school, being dramatic.
[00:19:03] But I remember there was a point in my life that I felt like I always, like, um, like if there was any sort of criticism or if I tried, like, speaking of, like, if I, let's say I was in trouble and I was trying to be like, "This was my side of the situation," I always felt like I would, like, break down crying, and it would feel like then there was something that, like, it would just be seen like, oh, I was in the wrong.
[00:19:36] So I told myself, like, I needed to stop crying, and the way, like, my brain worked through that was I was like, "I am going to just imagine my heart being a stone."
[00:19:52] No, I didn't know that
[00:19:53] Mm-hmm.
[00:19:55] Wow.
[00:19:55] And I remember I was like, I knew, 'cause I was like I was laying on the ground, and I was like, "I know this is gonna be like a point of like once this happens, like I'm not gonna cry."
[00:20:06] And for the longest time, like I would not cry-
[00:20:10] Yeah ...
[00:20:10] after that.
[00:20:13] Yeah. You, you literally se- sealed a deal.
[00:20:15] Yeah. Mm-hmm.
[00:20:18] So she, she knew about that. I, I didn't know about that. She knew. Yeah. She was there when that happened, and it, it was literally heartbreaking for her, too Yeah, 'cause she doesn't know. She didn't know.
[00:20:30] She didn't know and she, she didn't know what she didn't know- Yeah ... and she also didn't know how to reach you.
[00:20:37] Yeah. '
[00:20:38] Cause for many reasons, which I'm sure you can have your imagination around, she didn't know we could do something like this.
[00:20:45] Well, at the time, I, I didn't, I was not thinking that either. Yeah.
[00:20:49] Yeah, yeah. So, um, she's very open and willing.
[00:20:53] Mm-hmm.
[00:20:54] And so, um, the invitation is for you either to kind of pick a spot on the ground to kind of have a fuzzy gaze or to close your eyes- Yeah ... and to start sh- she wants to t- she wants to share some things with you directly.
[00:21:06] Okay. Mm-hmm.
[00:21:09] So she might show you, she might tell you
[00:21:32] I'm getting like, like an injury, like, like your hands hurting. I don't know if it's like a reprimand or like if there's like some sort of like cut, but something with the hands.
[00:21:44] Okay. I'm gonna ask her about that.
[00:21:46] Mm-hmm.
[00:21:48] Um, so she says it wasn't an injury, but she, she had too much to hold, and it hurt. Oh, okay.
[00:21:55] It hurt.
[00:21:55] Yeah.
[00:21:56] Um, and so I always ask, like I don't always say the things out loud, but I ask-
[00:22:00] Mm-hmm ...
[00:22:01] um, does she want us to know something more specific? And she does. Yeah.
[00:22:05] Okay.
[00:22:05] And so, um- It was both personal and professional. She didn't know how to, like, um, she says fulfill all of her obligations.
[00:22:19] Yeah.
[00:22:20] Um, and-
[00:22:25] She felt like it was her responsibility for some reason. We don't need- Mm-hmm ... to know what that reason is. Um, and she and her husband had, um, some kind of business.
[00:22:39] Okay, yeah.
[00:22:40] She said the nature of the business is not important, but it's how she, it's how she, um- How she became successful
[00:22:50] Okay
[00:22:55] So she's gonna tell you a little bit more, and her, and like the way that you're getting it is right on.
[00:23:00] Okay. It's very hard for me to like see these things, and I often question myself, but I'm just trying to be open. Yeah. 'Cause I o- I overthink things a lot, so I'm just trying to be open to whatever, like first comes to m-
[00:23:13] Yeah
[00:23:13] mind.
[00:23:14] Yeah, a- and it's not, I'm not a seer either, Brittany.
[00:23:16] Yeah.
[00:23:16] So I, I sometimes see things, but I am more like I feel it, like goosebumps. Yeah. Or it's like, um, um, do you know what a plumb line is? Like-
[00:23:25] Yeah ...
[00:23:26] like when the information drops in- Mm-hmm ... that's the other way I get it. Like, there's no reason why I should know these things, and they just kind of drop into my body, and I feel it.
[00:23:34] Yeah.
[00:23:35] Um, so sometimes it's chill, sometimes it's dropping in, and sometimes they use my body just the way they did yours.
[00:23:40] Mm-hmm.
[00:23:40] So if it's something, like s- sometimes it's a metaphor and sometimes it's exact. So- Yeah ... I would, just like with what you got, like I would say like, "Is there s- a hand injury?" And then she told me, um, no, it's, it's the metaphor of the hands.
[00:23:54] Yeah.
[00:23:54] Mm-hmm.
[00:23:55] Um,
[00:23:56] and sometimes they use what we already know, so they might like show you with things that you already know, like in your wheelhouse. Mm-hmm. So they use my wheelhouse. I have a lot of different wheelhouses, and so they give me the information in a way that I just kind of be like, "Oh, is this what you mean?"
[00:24:09] Yeah. "Are we on the same page?" So you can ask, you can ask for clarification too.
[00:24:12] Okay. Got you.
[00:24:14] So if, if you're like, um, what do you mean, what do you mean great, great, great, grandma- ... like with your hand? Yeah. What's happening here? And yeah, 'cause it's, it's both that she is a little bit thwarted from talking to you, and you are a little bit- Mm-hmm
[00:24:26] thwarted from talking to her. And I, I have asked for, um, like really like safe and whole communication between the two of you, and between your field and you, and, and with you and me, and your field with me. So I've-
[00:24:40] Mm-hmm ...
[00:24:40] done all those things in advance of us talking. Um, but still it's like, um, it's, it's such a compounded pattern that it's like literally like, um, we're in a s- in a soup that's really hard- Yeah
[00:24:54] to like get through. So we'll give it, we'll give it a, see what else she can, uh- Yeah ... share with you
[00:25:15] I'm getting that there is like a dispute between her and her husband, but they kind of had to put it together to continue the business possibly.
[00:25:29] Uh, uh, absolutely. Um, and she gave me something that I've never sh- I've never talked about on an episode, but we're
[00:25:38] g- Yeah ...
[00:25:38] we're going there because she- Mm-hmm
[00:25:40] she gave me permission. Um, and it's in service of you. So something happened where, um, she didn't know who it was at first. Yeah. But someone came and said, "I'm gonna help you."
[00:25:56] Okay. "
[00:25:56] I'm gonna help you with all of this." And, um, she, she clarifies it's not because she was naive.
[00:26:03] Mm-hmm.
[00:26:03] It was because she, um
[00:26:05] It's because this person had an allure to them.
[00:26:09] Mm-hmm.
[00:26:10] And, um, they were c- charismatic, and they were like really like, "I can help."
[00:26:16] Yeah.
[00:26:16] And, um, she didn't know what she was agreeing to.
[00:26:21] Yeah.
[00:26:22] And it was, um ... I'm, I'm looking for... I'm just listening for the specific words you want me to say out loud. Um, it warped her sense of reality.
[00:26:34] Okay.
[00:26:34] It's not like mental illness. Mm-hmm. Um, she says like a, a, a wolf in sheep's clothes.
[00:26:44] Yeah.
[00:26:45] And, um, I- when I say that she, she's like, "We're not shaming her, we're not blaming her." Mm-hmm. But she, she does feel like, "I can't believe I did this." She feels- Yeah ... like tremendous remorse, tremendous regret. Like-
[00:26:58] Mm-hmm
[00:26:59] it, it wreaked havoc, and so, um, it wreaked havoc in all ways for her, and especially in her marriage. And so she didn't know when she was alive that this was happening, but now she knows. Yeah. And, um, some of what would happen with you with what you shared about the- Mm-hmm ... conflicts is this. This is why- Okay
[00:27:18] I have to say it out loud so it's for you and for her, and for all the other, um, ancestors who had this too.
[00:27:26] Yeah.
[00:27:26] Um, so, um, she didn't, she didn't even understand until I asked her if this was it, and she's like, "How did you know?" And I said, "This is part of what I need to explain."
[00:27:36] Yeah.
[00:27:37] So you, you understand, and everyone listening understands misunderstandings.
[00:27:41] Yeah.
[00:27:42] And what happens, like there's a lot of phrases in every language that talks about like this person is in their own reality, or I can't believe that they have to live through that reality. So there's ... The reality term is used, but it's lost its ... the depth of its con- of its context. And, um- Because of the times that we're in, um, the realities are more and more and more fractured.
[00:28:11] Mm-hmm.
[00:28:12] Um, and some people can see them, and some people cannot. And it's not like Marvel Comics where it looks like it's, like, a pixelated, like, this person's in, um, you know, the equivalent of Mars. It's not like that kind of- Yeah. I mean, I'm sure those things happen. I'm not gonna dis- discount those things.
[00:28:27] Mm-hmm. But that's not what we're talking about. We're talking about, um... We're gonna go one step at a time with it 'cause it's a teaching, and it's important. So there is, um... When these kind of deals are made, there's a warped sense of reality. Okay. So your, um, great-great-great-great-grandmother believed she was saying to her husband something really honest.
[00:28:50] Mm-hmm. She believed that, but what he heard was, like, not those words.
[00:28:56] Okay. Interesting.
[00:28:57] So it wasn't, like, a projection. It wasn't, like, a m- it wasn't like, oh, like I'm gonna jump to a conclusion. It was, like, literally, like, the... He did not see her mouth move the way that she moved it. He saw her whole face and heard the words from her ears as something else, and it was-
[00:29:16] Okay
[00:29:17] very... Like, she could not believe it. It was heartbreaking. I'm not allowed to know what it was.
[00:29:22] Yeah.
[00:29:23] But it caused a massive dispute because she didn't know that she was in a warped reality.
[00:29:29] Yeah.
[00:29:29] And he also was in a warped reality. Okay. So I'm not allowed to know about him. Yeah. But they, they both were in warped realities.
[00:29:37] And, and it's important to clarify it's not, like, all or nothing. It wasn't like their whole life was warped, but around the business it was warped. Okay. And around their relationship it was warped. And, um, it, um- that she wants me to say, and it was also about sex.
[00:29:55] Okay. Mm-hmm.
[00:29:57] And so, um, that's really important.
[00:30:01] I, I didn't, I, I don't, I didn't feel that until sh- I started to explain this, and this is clearing up things for her, too. And so they repaired as much as possible, but it was, it was heartbreaking, and it was, like, a lot of an- a lot of fighting.
[00:30:18] Yeah.
[00:30:18] A lot of arguments. Um, and they're pressing on my liver, and the liver is called, in, in Daoism and Chinese medicine, it's called, like, the general, like, army.
[00:30:29] The general of emotions.
[00:30:31] Okay.
[00:30:31] And so her emotions kind of went haywire, 'cause she was enraged because she felt disrespected. Yeah. She felt misunderstood, but she didn't know... She projected. That was the projection. She projected it onto her husband-
[00:30:44] Mm-hmm ...
[00:30:44] and to other people. Um, business partners, um, customers or clients.
[00:30:50] But she didn't know that she was contributing to this.
[00:30:54] Yeah.
[00:30:54] And she didn't know that, 'cause she was in a warped reality, she did not see herself as others saw her. And others were confused a- and some others were not confused. So not everybody was in a double warped reality. Um, so she can hear when you talk about what happened in middle school.
[00:31:13] Mm-hmm. That you were saying you, you were in, um, the reality of wholeness, but-
[00:31:20] Yeah ...
[00:31:21] people were not hearing you clearly.
[00:31:23] Mm-hmm.
[00:31:24] And so it wasn't your misperception.
[00:31:27] Okay.
[00:31:29] And how does that, how does that land when I clarify that?
[00:31:32] It feels, it feels like whole. Yeah. It makes, it makes sense. Yeah.
[00:31:39] Um, and, like, sh- that helps her, that really...
[00:31:43] It's really important that she knows th- that, that she knows that you get it- Mm-hmm ... because, um, she can see how much, um, the ripple effect of this one choice made.
[00:31:55] Yeah.
[00:32:03] So she, she explains to me that over time, because she was so misunderstood and so, was so conflictual, she felt like anything from like, "What's the point? Why do I even try?" Mm-hmm. To like she would shake when she would go to speak because she's like kind of like almost like self-coaching herself. Like, "I know what I'm saying, I know what I'm saying, and no one's believing me."
[00:32:25] Yeah, like the fear that you, even though you feel confident in something, someone else is just gonna dismiss it.
[00:32:33] And for her, it was a lot of other things. Like they would criticize her and shame her. Yeah. And dismissing was the mildest one, she says.
[00:32:40] Mm-hmm.
[00:32:41] Um, lot, lot of judgment. She was also very beautiful, and so it was like a lot of jealu- it was like very warped, like a lot of jealousy, a lot of different things in the mix.
[00:32:51] Mm-hmm. Um, so it was very painful. Um, and like a lot of like, "You're so beautiful and you're so smart, but why do you say these like..." I'm just checking. "Why do you say these insane things?"
[00:33:04] Yeah.
[00:33:06] So like she was told to keep her mouth shut. She was told, um, "You don't know what you're talking about. You can't see the whole thing."
[00:33:19] So it was a lot of gas- like what we call in modern times gaslighting. Yeah. They didn't call it that back then. No. Um, that, that's a modern term. She doesn't know that term, she says. Um, but it's important that she feels that you, you... Like the ancestors wanna feel gotten. Like, do we get- Yes. Mm-hmm ... we really get it and you really get it.
[00:33:39] Yeah.
[00:33:40] And I really get it, and so that, that really matters. Um- Yeah. Um, and so she's like, "Where do we go from here?" She's very no-nonsense, and I know that's part of your, your family lineage.
[00:33:54] Mm-hmm.
[00:33:56] So, um, now we're gonna tune into... We can, we have the right to bring in a resource for her. Okay. And the resource will help both her and you.
[00:34:04] Mm-hmm. And so I'm gonna tune into what kind of resource we need.
[00:34:07] Okay.
[00:34:17] Okay, so this is also another, another one that, um, is brand new for those listening.
[00:34:24] Oh, yay.
[00:34:26] Yeah, so I, I've ... You know, I do these things in private sessions, but this has never come up on, um, the podcast. Okay. So it's a little bit of a hybrid. Um, so there's things that I do that I will not say on the podcast because they asked me not to say, so I'm doing those things now.
[00:34:39] Okay.
[00:34:40] Um, and I'm happy to debrief it with you afterwards, but-
[00:34:42] Okay ...
[00:34:42] there's something that, um ... It's kind of sa- it's just, it's just sacred. It's not kind of, it is sacred, and they asked me not to put it out on the waves- Yeah ... of the interwebs. Um, okay.
[00:34:58] Okay, so we're in a, we're in a, um, sacred, a sacred process. Mm-hmm. And, um, there's kind of two layers that I just ask for help with, 'cause it's not, it's not me. I'm not the one who's doing it. It comes through me. Mm-hmm. They want me to clarify that I do channel, but I'm not the channel for what the process is.
[00:35:19] Okay. So I channel the information, but they are doing it for you, your great-great-great-grandmother, the lineage, and the systemic field. Um, so th- I can share that the key players are Archangel Metatron.
[00:35:35] Okay.
[00:35:35] And then, um, so the archangels all have like different like hats. Okay. So Archangel Metatron was there with...
[00:35:41] when a lot of, um, agreements were made that kind of went sideways.
[00:35:46] Mm-hmm. Okay.
[00:35:46] So this is a sideways agreement that, um, your great-great-great-grandmother made, and there was immense betrayal. Okay. So it's like this was the... This was like if it was a outline, like this is, um, the I, like the capital I dot.
[00:36:00] Mm-hmm. That was the agreement. So she was like, "That agreement looks great. That's gonna really help." And now we're down to like, you know, I don't even... Like 1A, one period A period like one do- Yeah It's like so tiny. The fine print is so tiny that m- there's no way she could've known about it.
[00:36:18] Yeah.
[00:36:19] So, um, M- Metatron can be there in the totality of the agreement that- Mm-hmm
[00:36:23] is conscious and unconscious, known and unknown, that, um, she signed up for. It doesn't go any further back than her, 'cause I asked, "Is that where it originated?" And they said yes. Yeah. Um, it's not even from a past life, 'cause I, I, I'm asking like, "Is it one of her past lives?" 'Cause it can be that complicated.
[00:36:38] So- Yeah ... no, it's just, it's just this time. Okay. Um, it has to do with other things that we don't have to get into. Um, it's all covered in, um, Metatron being there. And then we kind of have like the signers of the agreement there.
[00:36:51] Okay.
[00:36:51] And so, um, she's there. Others are there who cannot be named on the podcast in the interrupts.
[00:36:58] And then also, um, um, he's an ascendant master. His name is Saint Germain or Saint Germain.
[00:37:06] Okay. Mm-hmm.
[00:37:07] And he has the violet flame.
[00:37:09] Yes.
[00:37:10] And he says that you know him.
[00:37:11] Yes. Yes.
[00:37:13] Yeah. Mm-hmm. So, um, s- so the violet flame is trans- transmutational or alchemical.
[00:37:20] Okay.
[00:37:21] And so, um, we are going to ask on behalf of great-great-great-grandmother, um...
[00:37:28] I kind of asked for like what's the word, 'cause it's kind of like a legal contract. Mm-hmm. So I'm asking for what it is. It's a rescinding. So there's all kinds of legal terms they give to me, and so this, this... We're asking, um, Metatron and Saint Germain and your grandmother to go to the original signers.
[00:37:46] Mm-hmm.
[00:37:46] And she can see them clearly now for who they were. And, um, that just like one, two, three, they're gonna ask for it to be, um, resci- the agreement will be rescinded in totality, in perpetuity, um, throughout all time, space, and dimension, all universes, and with every, um- person and being that it touched, including you.
[00:38:08] Okay.
[00:38:09] Okay. 'Cause you are, you are through it through the blood lineage, but other people were touched because of other things.
[00:38:14] Yeah.
[00:38:14] Um, and you can close your eyes if you like. And so, um, you can, Brittany, you can kind of bring up all of the things that kind of touch this in your own system. Mm-hmm. So you told me about the middle school years.
[00:38:26] Mm-hmm. But anything that we've talked about that you're like, "Oh, that's related," it's kind of like- Yeah ... um, like when you have ... I don't know if Lite Brite was a part of your childhood, like where you had like- Yeah ... when we light it up, it allows the sweep to be deeper.
[00:38:40] Okay.
[00:38:41] So we light it up. We don't have to, like, name it, but, like, you just, like, you're kind of, like, taking, like
[00:38:45] You're not in a, in a part of the country that has a lot of leaves, but, like, when you pick up leaves, you just kind of gather them together, and we just, like, we're offering them to the leaf composter. Okay.
[00:38:54] Yeah.
[00:38:54] So you're just ... Whatever it feels like in your body, like you're getting the rocks, you're putting the rocks out there.
[00:38:58] Mm-hmm.
[00:38:58] Whatever. It could be an image. It could be a sensation. But we're, we're gathering up all the things that are related conscious and unconscious for you. Mm-hmm. And we're, we're, we're handing them over to this ... It's a ceremony.
[00:39:10] Okay.
[00:39:10] And it's a, it's an alchemical process, and it's a ceremony. Um, so we're putting those all into the process.
[00:39:18] And, um- A lot of betrayal, like immense, immense, immense betrayal. Um, immense betrayal with men, um, among men, uh, with money, um, with the voice, with being clearly understood and clearly understanding, with being able to see the whole
[00:39:49] With the right to be here. Um, and she says, like, "Standing on my own t- I wanted to stand on my own two feet and be recognized." Um
[00:40:08] and withholding of love, um, heartbreak
[00:40:19] So all of that is a part of this agreement. Um So even though it's not your agreement, you're a part of it.
[00:40:27] Mm-hmm.
[00:40:27] And so it's being rescinded, and, um, Saint- Saint Germain is, um, using the violet flame to, um, alchemically rescind it to its, um, point of origin
[00:40:44] And so you might notice something in your body, you might not. Um, but, but your grandmother, your great-great-great-grandmother is receiving, um It's, it's, it's more potent for her because it started with her
[00:41:14] I feel much lighter
[00:41:16] Yeah, yeah
[00:41:17] Mm-hmm.
[00:41:18] So it's gonna take longer for her. Um, it's done for you, and s- for some of... Like, for Mimi, it's gonna take, I have the right to know. For Mimi, it will take, um
[00:41:32] Seven and a half months
[00:41:34] Okay
[00:41:35] So that, I think that brings us almost, almost, um, into the g- to the new year.
[00:41:42] Yeah. Mm-hmm.
[00:41:43] Yeah, it's in the new year. Um, they said it'll be in time for Valentine's Day.
[00:41:47] Oh, perfect.
[00:41:48] And so she will have a, um- Renewed heart
[00:41:54] Mm-hmm
[00:41:56] Um, yeah
[00:42:03] So your great-great-great-grandmother, great, four greats, that's hard for me to get out, um, um, she wants to check in with you now again
[00:42:29] I'm getting the sense of like a hug and then reassurance that like She, even though part of her felt responsible for this, she's gonna be like looking after and like, "I've got you- Yeah ... from now on." Mm-hmm.
[00:42:46] Yeah. And she says she'll always take care of your heart.
[00:42:50] That's so sweet
[00:42:52] Yeah. She's like- Mm-hmm ... um, so there's some other things I'm saying that can also not be said out loud, so, um- Uh-huh
[00:42:59] I'm gonna ask for those three things now
[00:43:10] So I can talk about the last one.
[00:43:12] Mm-hmm.
[00:43:12] So there are kind of three processes that she gets and that you get, and everyone kind of in between who- who's been touched. Um- Mm ... and it's on, um, a soul, it's soul level, um, it's a soul level process. So-
[00:43:24] Yeah ...
[00:43:25] we're not doing anything to anybody, and like if the souls, they're given the option to say yes to this, but if they don't want it, they can opt out.
[00:43:34] Okay. So it's not, Mimi will not be forced, or forced- Mm ... as you know, in real life. Yeah. But her soul is the same. Mm-hmm. So, um, it's up, it's her, it's a choice. And, um, so this next one is, um, they wanted me to bring up Mimi first because this is probably big.
[00:43:52] Yeah.
[00:43:53] So part of what this means is that, um, because y- y- you've never really been in a warped reality.
[00:44:00] Mm-hmm.
[00:44:01] Like, that's pretty unusual. Um- Yeah ... you've had very few experiences of that, but you've been around a lot of people who experience you as the one with the warped reality.
[00:44:10] Oh. What, wait, what does that mean?
[00:44:14] So it means you, you have seen things as they are-
[00:44:16] Yeah ...
[00:44:16] in wholeness, but other people have misperceived you.
[00:44:20] Okay. Interesting. Okay.
[00:44:24] Does that, does that make
[00:44:25] sense? Yeah. Mm-hmm.
[00:44:26] Yeah. So, and it can be really, like, they, they want me to use the word crazy making, and I, I don't, I don't say that word lightly.
[00:44:33] Yeah.
[00:44:33] Um, and so, and um, Mimi has been in a s- kind of like the opposite of you.
[00:44:43] Okay. Mm-hmm.
[00:44:45] And, um, she has definitely times of being in the wholeness, but then- Mm-hmm I cannot say it out loud.
[00:44:53] We can talk it after, after pod- Yeah ... after the podcast. But, um, this is gonna be, um It has the potential for it to be quite radical.
[00:45:05] Okay.
[00:45:06] So when we, um, when we didn't know what we didn't know- Mm-hmm ... and we thought we were in a reality of wholeness or the wholeness, um, we see things kind of sideways. Yeah.
[00:45:19] And then when you are in the reality of the wholeness, you're like, "I love this person. How can this person think like this?" Mm-hmm. Or say things like this? Like, what's this?
[00:45:29] Mm-hmm.
[00:45:29] It can really feel like that. Yeah. And part of the gift that you carry is that you don't have, um, righteousness.
[00:45:36] Okay.
[00:45:37] You don't carry that.
[00:45:39] And so, um, when we carry righteousness, we get confused.
[00:45:43] Okay.
[00:45:44] And so you didn't, um, bump, bump up against that, so that then you didn't carry this for her.
[00:45:49] Okay. '
[00:45:49] Cause you could have carried this for her.
[00:45:51] Mm-hmm.
[00:45:53] So that's important for you to ... for, for the field to clarify with you. So when we, when this, um, agreement is rescinded, there's a potential for, um, wholeness.
[00:46:06] Okay.
[00:46:06] And wholeness in all ways. Um, and, and within you, like your thoughts, how people experience you, um, how you experience people, and, um- Kind of like the, the, the word they're using is, like, the as- the assuredness you will carry will be kind of astounding for people.
[00:46:30] Okay.
[00:46:31] And so your great-great-great-great-grandmother will be
[00:46:34] You know she has your back. Yeah. She has the back of your heart. She's kind of protecting it, but she also will be, um, a gentle shield-
[00:46:41] Mm-hmm ...
[00:46:41] for the front of your heart.
[00:46:43] Okay.
[00:46:44] And, um, Metatron will be there too.
[00:46:46] Okay.
[00:46:47] So Meta- Metatron is now one of your guides.
[00:46:49] Okay. Yeah.
[00:46:51] Um, and, um, Saint Germain is one of your guides too.
[00:46:54] Okay.
[00:46:54] And so rather than putting rocks back in your heart-
[00:46:57] Yeah ...
[00:46:58] um, you can say it like ... It's kind of like they gave me a lot of, like, little ditties. Like-
[00:47:03] Mm-hmm ...
[00:47:03] one, two, three, I'd like Metatron and Saint Germain to kind of come and he- keep me safe when I'm gonna be brave.
[00:47:09] Yeah.
[00:47:11] And like the people who really need to hear me clearly, please let them hear me, and the people who are sideways, I don't wanna hear about them anymore.
[00:47:18] Yeah.
[00:47:18] Like, you can't con- we can't control them. We don't wanna control people.
[00:47:21] Mm-hmm.
[00:47:22] Um, or reality. That's not, that's not really a great strategy, um, as we can see what's happening with the world right now. People are trying to-
[00:47:29] Mm-hmm ...
[00:47:29] control reality, and that's really-
[00:47:31] Yeah ...
[00:47:32] um, not good. Um, so great-great-great-grandmother has that now, and then it's being offered to Mimi.
[00:47:40] Mm-hmm.
[00:47:41] And it is, like, gonna be a seven-and-a-half month process to tell you how big
[00:47:44] that is. Yeah. Mm-hmm.
[00:47:46] And, um, that's quite big.
[00:47:49] Yeah.
[00:47:50] That's, like, unusual 'cause I, I do this all the time, and it's very rare to get something like that. Yeah. Um, so, um- Sometimes, like you listen to some of the podcast episodes, um, we talk about ancestral entanglements.
[00:48:05] Yeah. So this was not an ancestral entanglement. Okay. This was something else. It was, it was, um, it was her agreement, um, great-great-great-grandmother's. Then it, it was an entanglement for Mimi with her.
[00:48:17] Mm-hmm.
[00:48:18] Mimi is now freed-
[00:48:19] Okay ... from,
[00:48:20] from that. So it's like many... It's like a, like a, like multiple layers, um, experience.
[00:48:25] And then you, um, you had this experience because of the blood that came through Mimi to you.
[00:48:33] Okay.
[00:48:34] Because in a concrete way, and sometimes it's not concrete, but you know that when y- your mom was in Mimi-
[00:48:40] Mm-hmm ...
[00:48:41] your mom had all of her eggs-
[00:48:44] Yeah ...
[00:48:44] in her when you were in Mimi, when she was- Mm-hmm ... in Mimi.
[00:48:49] So, um, it's hard to explain how it happens, but this one n- not even- Yeah, just- ... not even your twin, it just came... it came through, and it was a pre-life agreement, but it came through the blood.
[00:49:01] Mm-hmm.
[00:49:01] It was a spiritual and energetic agreement that came through the blood. That's the way they want me to clarify this.
[00:49:07] It's not so much for you, but for a lot of people, like, how do you know? Yeah. So I can ask. I can ask. Um, I have that, I have... That's within my pay grade. Um- Mm-hmm ... and so you are 100% freed, and you already received the blessing from great-great-great-grandmother. Mm-hmm. And, um, sometimes it's a conversation in, in the realms with, um, the person that you had the direct contact with, but it...
[00:49:29] this time, it's not a conversation with Mimi.
[00:49:32] Okay. So
[00:49:32] her soul is here. Her soul is, um, experiencing this, and- Mm-hmm ...
[00:49:36] we're
[00:49:37] not allowed to know, um... I'm not allowed to know, and you're not allowed to know, um, Mimi's life agreements.
[00:49:43] Yeah.
[00:49:44] And so that's... As, as you would imagine, Mimi's very private.
[00:49:48] Yes.
[00:49:48] Mm-hmm. As are her life agreements.
[00:49:50] So-
[00:49:50] Yeah ...
[00:49:51] I don't ever go past anything that I'm not, not supposed to. Um- Mm-hmm ... and I would not encourage that for you or anyone else who's listening. Um- Yeah, no.
[00:49:58] Mm-mm.
[00:49:58] Yeah, yeah.
[00:49:58] I encourage- Uh-uh. I'm not gonna mess with Mimi. Mm-mm.
[00:50:00] Yeah, you're not gonna mess with Mimi. Um, and God bless Mimi. Um- Yes ... so, um- I'm, I'm listening for what's, what's next.
[00:50:11] Mm-hmm. Um, so the process is done, 'cause sometimes the process goes forward. Mm-hmm. The process is, is complete, and so then the next question I ask is, like, what is, what is supportive for your integration?
[00:50:23] Okay.
[00:50:24] Um, okay. So I kinda go... I have a lot of checks. I won't say them all w- out loud, so I'm asking.
[00:50:29] Sometimes they just give me one right away. Um.
[00:50:31] Yeah.
[00:50:40] They want me to ... I've also never talked about this on the podcast, so- ... it's, it's gonna be like, this is a hot episode.
[00:50:46] Yeah, I know.
[00:50:47] Um, so, um, there's four levels of integra- uh, there's ... I'm dyslexic, so there's levels of integration. I'm not gonna count the numbers right now. Mm-hmm. So, um, and everybody integrates differently depending on their system, depending on their life agreements- Yeah
[00:51:00] depending on all the different things. So it's ... There's, there's not a one-size-fits-all. So the first level that I check is body, because you told me about something in your body.
[00:51:09] Yeah.
[00:51:09] So the physical body, there's nothing to do.
[00:51:12] Mm-hmm.
[00:51:12] Then, then the next one I ask about is body consciousness. And so- Mm-hmm
[00:51:15] a lot of my episodes I talk about ... Well, not many, but some of the episodes I get into teaching people how to talk to their body, how to talk to organs. Mm-hmm. And it's, it's not the physical body I'm teaching them about, it's the body consciousness. Okay. So there's something about your body consciousness.
[00:51:29] We'll come back to that one. Mm-hmm. The other one is the energy body, which you're very familiar with. Our energy- Mm-hmm ... um, both in and around us. And then the next one is vibrational.
[00:51:39] Okay.
[00:51:40] And so it's ... You don't ha- You only have body consciousness.
[00:51:42] Okay.
[00:51:43] Okay. So for your body consciousness, the recommendation is
[00:51:47] I'll listen for it
[00:51:58] That's another, another little teaching moment. Mm-hmm. So you are, um, wise in your, in your, um, spirit, and you're not so, not so old in real life. Um-
[00:52:10] Yeah.
[00:52:11] So many people struggle with this, and I don't think this is a struggle for you, but it's gonna deepen your path.
[00:52:17] Okay.
[00:52:18] Um, and it's gonna help integrate this.
[00:52:20] So many people who struggle with purpose or, like, why am I here, like- Mm-hmm ... what is this all about? What is this life all about? Um, they go to acupuncture- Okay ... for a movement, and it is, it is the movement of the heart coming down to the kidneys.
[00:52:35] Okay.
[00:52:36] And that's a really hard movement. It's like-
[00:52:39] Mm-hmm
[00:52:39] energetically, even acupuncturists, like, it takes some time. And, uh, most of our, most of our life, our energy is going, um, from, like, our pelvic bowl up to our heart.
[00:52:51] Okay.
[00:52:51] When you go into perimenopause, which you're far from. But your, your mom is in that experience.
[00:52:57] Yes. Mm-hmm.
[00:52:57] Perimenopause through post-menopause, that bridge, the other side of the hormonal experience- Yeah
[00:53:04] um, our, our hormones change directions, and our- Oh, okay ... energy changes directions. So, um, I, I help... I don't think I've shared that in the other episodes, but for... I have people of all ages listening, but they want me to clarify. So yours are coming up the front of your body and coming back. Mm-hmm. Like-
[00:53:22] Okay
[00:53:23] like the hair, like I'm
[00:53:23] bringing my- Almost like I'm combing my hair, yep ...
[00:53:25] combing my hair back, right. Mm-hmm. That's, that's how it is before, um, perimenopause. Um, with- perimenopause through post-menopause, it comes from the back of the body- Okay ... and comes over like a waterfall.
[00:53:38] Okay.
[00:53:38] And so we're coming down to the pelvic bowl, and it- it's...
[00:53:41] That breath is called yin rising.
[00:53:43] Okay.
[00:53:43] So yin rising is different than, than the heart coming down to the, um, kidneys and the pelvic bowl, but the yin rising energy is kind of like that is, that is the movement in your body. So you want the waterfall of energy. Mm-hmm. And there's all kinds of like, um, governing ve- vessels, conception vessels, all kinds of things in Daoism that get into it that help you, like, feel it a little bit more.
[00:54:08] Mm-hmm. '
[00:54:08] Cause you're gonna be able... You're very sensitive. Um, you can sense these things. So w- what's gonna happen is that, like, a, a cleansing... Yin energy is energy from Mother Earth. Okay. And it helps us to feel really grounded, and so the strength that you're looking for is grounding strength.
[00:54:24] Okay. Mm-hmm.
[00:54:25] So yang, y- yang is, like, and you know about it the... a bit, a bit about this, but yang is from the sun. Yes. And it's like
[00:54:32] up.
[00:54:33] So you, you... For this to feel, like, strong in your body, you need the yin energy coming up and then the heart, which is very, can be very, um, yang at times.
[00:54:43] Mm-hmm.
[00:54:44] We want it to come down, and we, we...
[00:54:45] it kind of, like, nourishes the kidneys.
[00:54:47] Mm-hmm.
[00:54:48] And the kidneys are where, um, destiny, purpose, past life agreements, ancestral agreements, um, faith. Like, not s- not religious faith, but, like, I have the faith that it's gonna change.
[00:55:00] Yeah.
[00:55:00] And right relationship with risk.
[00:55:03] Okay.
[00:55:03] So either taking not enough risk or too much risk.
[00:55:07] We want just the right, right size for you.
[00:55:09] Mm-hmm.
[00:55:10] So this practice of just, just like in your Brittany way- Mm-hmm ... you're inviting all of it to kinda, like, just nourish, nourish you. And it's not the physical body, but it's the body consciousness. So your body consciousness, which is not your unconscious- Mm-hmm
[00:55:24] or your subconscious. It's a different, different layer. It is going to nourish, um, your Brittany-ness.
[00:55:31] Mm-hmm.
[00:55:32] And so you're gonna kinda get, like, an upgrade of the- Oh,
[00:55:36] yay.
[00:55:36] When you go to, like, speak, people are gonna be like, "Dang." Like-
[00:55:42] Yeah ...
[00:55:42] they're gonna, they're gonna hear you in a way that you've always heard yourself.
[00:55:46] Okay.
[00:55:47] But it will be, like, a different, um, a different part of your field.
[00:55:52] Yeah. And do, does that just, like, resonate, or is there something I do that, like...
[00:55:59] You just kinda, like, presence it. Like, however you be-bop through the day. Okay. Like, it c- like, it could be when you're laying down. Mm-hmm. It could be like, um, you have a dog.
[00:56:07] It could be like when you're, when you're petting your dog.
[00:56:09] Yeah.
[00:56:10] It could be, like, when you're taking a shower. Whatever you like to do. Mm-hmm. It doesn't have to be hard. Okay. And you'll kinda get a sense. Of like how long it should be.
[00:56:19] Mm-hmm. '
[00:56:19] Cause they don't want me to be very prescriptive. Like you, you do- Yeah
[00:56:22] know your body. You do know yourself. Um, and you'll pick this up very easily. Um, and the, the recommendation is to do it, the frequency of it is Once a day daily for seven days.
[00:56:36] Okay.
[00:56:37] And- Mm-hmm ... um, during that time, I'm just checking for anything else They actually do want you to do the salt bowl, which you're familiar with.
[00:56:46] Mm-hmm.
[00:56:47] Do a salt bowl. Um, I don't know if you have a vanity?
[00:56:51] I do. I'm right at my vanity right now.
[00:56:53] Okay. Mm-hmm. They're like, "Put it at your vanity."
[00:56:55] Okay, perfect. Yeah.
[00:56:56] Your vanity. And, um, it's a little bit of ritual. Mm-hmm. They want you to, like, pick it up and, like, just, like, do a Brittany thing around it, however you- Mm-hmm
[00:57:06] however you feel like the zhuzhing. And just, like, talk to the mirror.
[00:57:10] Okay.
[00:57:11] Gotcha. And you'll, you'll know how to do that. I don't have to prescribe it. Mm-hmm. And you know, like, the cycle of you want to empty it out 24 hours.
[00:57:19] Yes.
[00:57:20] Um, and do it during those seven days, and you don't have to do it afterwards.
[00:57:23] Mm-hmm. And then there's one more. There's three things they want you to do. Um
[00:57:36] They're asking... I think they know, but they want, they want me to ask you Mm-hmm ... is it bluebell season?
[00:57:41] A bluebell?
[00:57:43] Is it bluebell season? Like, um, the flower?
[00:57:48] Oh, y- like, like a bluebonnet?
[00:57:50] Oh, yes. Sorry. Yeah Sorry.
[00:57:52] No. Yeah. Yeah. Uh-huh. It
[00:57:54] is. Um, they, they would like you to invite Mimi-
[00:57:58] Yeah ...
[00:57:59] to take a walk at, in the bluebonnets with you.
[00:58:01] Aw. I love bluebonnets. That's so sweet.
[00:58:05] And, um- Mm-hmm ... that there might not even be a lot of words, but she's gonna get a- Mm-hmm ... transmission from you for healing.
[00:58:10] Okay. Mm-hmm.
[00:58:12] So after the seven days, that's the end.
[00:58:14] That's like the completion or something?
[00:58:16] That's
[00:58:16] the
[00:58:16] completion. Let me
[00:58:17] write that down.
[00:58:18] Um-
[00:58:18] Mm-hmm
[00:58:23] Yeah. She, she might not... You can never have this conscious conversation with her, I understand that. Yeah. And I understand that very well. Mm-hmm. But, like, your, um, your, um, just by your being-ness- Mm-hmm ... you carry a transmission. And, um, I know what you do, um, in your work in the world. Mm-hmm. And so also when you touch people-
[00:58:44] Yeah
[00:58:44] I'm not gonna say this out loud, but when you, when you touch people-
[00:58:47] Mm-hmm ...
[00:58:47] and it's appropriately for those of you thinking- Yes. ... "Why is Mimi saying it?" Um, when you touch people, you will give them the transmission.
[00:58:55] Okay.
[00:58:57] Yeah. And so whatever... You don't have to know their story-
[00:59:00] Mm-hmm ...
[00:59:00] but it's gonna be like their eyes, can they see clearly?
[00:59:04] Can they see- Yeah ... themselves clearly? Can they be seen clearly? And, and you'll just kind of... It will just kind of like, um, like popcorn or like- Yeah ... stars, it will pop into your field. Sometimes consciously and sometimes it'll just be in your hands.
[00:59:15] Mm-hmm.
[00:59:17] Yeah.
[00:59:18] I love that. I, when I, um, do go to... When I am at work and, like, someone, like, sits down in my chair, I do, like, think, like, if they're in my chair I...
[00:59:30] when I'm just, you know, starting out, I always then... I'm not gonna say it out loud, 'cause I don't need to overwhelm them, but I always, like, to myself just go, like, "I hope, like, you know, you take care of yourself and that you just, like, you know, nothing bad's gonna happen. I hope that you just, like, feel loved."
[00:59:49] And that way they, like, leave and they hopefully have a little bit of that with them.
[00:59:55] That's amazing.
[00:59:56] Mm-hmm.
[00:59:57] And you can even ask. You ha- you have now the, um, access, like, an all access- Mm-hmm ... pass to ask Metatron and Saint Germain to help.
[01:00:05] Okay. Mm-hmm.
[01:00:06] So you could say, "Help them in the ways that I don't need to know.
[01:00:09] I don't need to know their business, but please, please, um, help them."
[01:00:12] Yeah.
[01:00:12] Um, and whatever, whatever this contact is about, me and this person, um, I'm here for it.
[01:00:21] Mm-hmm.
[01:00:24] And, you know, you can ask, like, let it be easy. And you can even ask in your field, I'm open to it being delightful.
[01:00:32] Yeah. Mm-hmm. Like,
[01:00:34] it doesn't have to be heavy and hard.
[01:00:35] Yeah. There, there are people who have to do it that way. You don't have to do it that way.
[01:00:39] Mm-hmm.
[01:00:41] So yeah, let it be easy. Like one, two, three.
[01:00:44] Yeah.
[01:00:44] Yeah. Like, it's kind of like it clears something for them that they don't know how to clear.
[01:00:50] Mm-hmm.
[01:00:50] And there's no obligation, so if you, you're like, this person is...
[01:00:53] There's no, um, there's nothing simpatico here.
[01:00:57] Yeah.
[01:00:58] It's like, okay. I... You can- Mm-hmm ... read that. You're like- I will do this and then I bid you well.
[01:01:05] Yep, exactly.
[01:01:06] Yeah.
[01:01:06] Mm-hmm.
[01:01:06] So you, you, you are, you ha- you have those things. Okay. Um, do you have any other questions or anything else you wanna name?
[01:01:17] Well, this one, I just have like, I'm just curious, and I'm not sure if this is like... You said that we, like, the agreement that my four great-grandma, like-
[01:01:30] Yeah ...
[01:01:31] got into, we don't need to know the purpose of?
[01:01:36] That's for the after party.
[01:01:37] Oh, okay.
[01:01:38] For you and I to talk about it.
[01:01:38] Okay. 'Cause I- Yeah ... I have a question about it, but I don't know if that's something that we can't disclose.
[01:01:44] Yeah. They ask, she asks and they ask- Mm-hmm ... that it's not disclosed publicly, so I have to-
[01:01:48] Okay ...
[01:01:49] yes. Thank
[01:01:49] you for- I respect that. I respect that. No- Thank
[01:01:51] you for being so discreet. Yes.
[01:01:52] Mm-hmm.
[01:01:53] Yes.
[01:01:53] Mm-hmm.
[01:01:54] Anything else?
[01:01:56] Mm-mm. No.
[01:01:57] Okay.
[01:01:58] This has been very, very helpful.
[01:02:00] Aw. Thank you for- Mm-hmm ... being brave. Of course.
[01:02:03] Thank you for bringing the fullness of who you are. And for those of you who have, uh, taken this journey with us today, uh, I hope that you are open to being curious to what you carry. Mm-hmm. And if you would like support with what you carry, you can always, um, send me an email. I'm not always on Instagram.
[01:02:20] You can sign up for my newsletter. Um, I, I, um, make newsletters and Instagram posts as spirit moves me, so it's- Mm-hmm ... I'm always doing work, but it's not always in ways that, um, are evident in the 3D. So my email is amy@amybabish.com, and, uh, we can sort out what is the best way that I can be of support to you in your field, in your life that you came to live.
[01:02:43] And, um, your forward evolution, your forward movement. Thank you, thank you, thank you. Sending blessings from the Dog Land that I steward outside of Washington, DC. And, uh, until we meet again, sending you blessings.
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